Sigh

What exactly are we?

Sometimes I feel like we are friends
Sometimes I feel like we are more than friends
But sometimes I feel like I am a complete stranger to you.

I looked at how we was on my birthday.
those messages/stuff you said.
it totally made my day. why can't we just stay in that moment?

hiya.

don't think there is still anybody else reading this blog.
well... if you are still reading this... i am surprised.

Life's hasn't been all great but yeah. manageable.
gonna close this blog soon..... so yeah. seeya guys people elsewhere... if i decide to make a tumblr or smth that is. ( or use my current one )

well seeya.

sometimes.....

What are we? Where are we? Who are we?
I don't even know what the heck this is.
Why does everything have to be this complicated?
At least draw a line. It's tiring.
It seems so hard to just talk like every other people and have fun.
Casual conversations never seems to happen. I tried.
I tried my best to do everything. But without chances all those attempts are nothing.
No, this is not a complain.

I'll be waiting.

Is it too late?

There’s so many wars we fought,
There’s so many things we’re not,
But with what we have,
I promise you that,
I will never let you go.

I never really wanted anything extraordinary in life. Maybe just enough money to live comfortably
Settle down and lead life like every other normal people does. Am I not capable of that?
Am I that bad that i am denied of everything a normal person could have?

I always hope all my problems won't affect anything. How wrong.
It affects every freaking thing. I just want to love and be loved like every other people. Is that too much to ask for?

Dear fragil heart, are you toying with me? You messing with my life?
Oh lord I am lost and confuse. Tell me what is going on. Please.